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sugar is my kryptonite
anger is my pilot light
booze is my funhouse mirror

Lennon is unrequited
music is my fruit
time is my mockingbird

sex is my glue
writing is my revenge
Groucho is my uncle

silence is my prayer
desire is my serpent
jealousy is my jailer

gluttony is my downfall
television is my comfort
hope is my tomorrow

fear is my bully
memory is my curse
Lenny is my prophet

forgiveness is my love
scars are my receipts
life is my material

Welcome to My Mind

Something’s not right
yet there’s nothing
to point at,

It’s a cold jittery jangle
in my chest --
my limbs ticklish
and waiting to spring
into action.

My brain restlessly
turning over every stone
with no clue
what it is looking for,
but I know it’s feverishly working
because my head
is sweating.

Of all the things
that can go wrong
which will it be?
My wife?
My kids?
My job?
My car?

Popping and jumping
my mind reconstructs
past events
looking for the telltale clue
the smoking gun
the fatal flaw.

What is coming
that will undo me?

I try to predict when
and where my good luck
will dry up and blow away
like daisies
in a sandstorm.

“Trust in God”
“If God is with me”
etc etc etc
holy holy, …

God is calm
no reason not to be.

God likes seeing me off-balance
every now and again
to keep me humble
to keep me compliant

and God’s probably right
to do so

because we both know me
and if I am not on my toes
I get lazy
and the pencil remains ignored
so this anxiety
is the call

to creation
to inquiry
to reconnection.

This connection doesn’t kill
the shivering anxiety
but it comforts me
for a while

as I wait for
the other shoe to drop.

Holy Communion

Everywhere I look
I see the flock
lost in their prayers:

young and old
rich and poor
Jew and Gentile.

Each in holy communion
huddled around
their electronic beads,
their mutant rosaries.

Speaking in tongues
to unseen companions,

each believer
in holy solitude
to something greater
than themselves.

In gratitude
they offer
the abstract sacrifice
of their time.

At last,
the world is of one accord.

Bridging the gap
between human loneliness
and cosmic emptiness
is this
God With a Hundred Names:



No Escape

Somewhere else
is what I want

but right here
is all I'm gonna get

and all I need
according to God.

So I'll walk through it
without booze
or pills
or illicit thrills.

You walked through
this howling madhouse
of no escape
and let them
nail you to the cross
where you died for me.

you're such a show-off.

You suffered for me
and now
I pray I can
return the favor.

Twin Serpents

Take this desire
and tie it to memory
and purify it in the flames.

My ego is a zombie
of unquenchable thirst
and it needs more brains
than I have to feast upon.

I do not want
a mirror made of
website hits
and reader posts.

Take these
twin serpents
and wash me clean.

Lord, hold me under
long enough
to drown
all these predictable

and raise me up
through this baptism


without memory,
a virtuous

Bad Boy and Family Man

I’m the guy you used to want:

I’m the one who snuck you
out the window of your
parents’ house
and took you on my Harley
and we drank and rode all night
falling asleep in the wet grass
after fornicating behind the church
both of us knowing
you had an algebra test the next morning

I’m the one who didn’t take
any shit from anyone and though it
cost me a couple lousy jobs and
a high school diploma
you still acquiesced to
my fearless deviant desire
because something in your soul
was lit when you were under
my alpha male charm

and there was no fight too small
and my fists leapt at every opportunity
and I did heroic lines of coke
and stole what I didn’t have
and I didn’t care about tomorrow
and when marriage number one crashed and burned
I blamed her for it
and I did all these things
because that’s what got me laid
and it felt right.

Now time has slowed me
and I have seen error of those ways
and I found a family
and maybe it was her kids that
finally softened me

but most likely it was
my wife’s love all along

and now I wake up every morning
shave and put on a clean shirt
and I say “yes, sir” a lot of guys
that I might have bitch-slapped
back in the day
and I call home before I leave work
to ask if she needs anything
from the store
even if it’s tampons
and I take out the trash
and help one daughter with her algebra
and pick up my son and his friend
and take them to the bowling alley
and sit through another episode
of “Full House” with my little one

and sometimes
in my quietest moments
both Bad Boy and Family Man
will appear to me
at the same time
asking the same question:

who are you?

gots time for a meme, anyone?

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favourite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favourite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What colour eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
26) What's your favourite place to hang out at?
27) Do you believe in ghosts?
28) Favourite thing to do in your spare time?
29) Do you swear a lot?
30) Biggest pet peeve?
31) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
33) Favourite and least favourite food?
34) Do you believe in God?
35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

I Believe

Nothing will prepare us for
that angel waiting at our final door
who’ll beckon us to come explore
an afterlife we can’t ignore
unlike the view we’ve learned before
no flames are coming through the floor
and there isn’t torture, fear or gore
only love everlasting and nothing more,
so listen now, as the truth I tell
I believe there is no everlasting hell.

Your life unlived, full of regret,
you’ve dug your grave with a pile of debt
as eternal challenges go unmet
and childhood dreams you must forget
but please don’t worry or even fret
this rollercoaster ain’t over yet
there’s still time to change and get
all that cannot be lost on a bet,
so before this situation worsens
I believe God will save every person.

Immerse yourself in sacred pages
decode prophecies of ancient sages
but literal interpretations so outrageous
can lead to justifiable rages,
don’t surrender logic in subtle stages
or let fear of death become contagious
ask the hard questions, be courageous
and let God free you from any cages.
It doesn’t matter how it is said or done
I believe, the Lord, our God, is One.

Cherry pick what you believe
and earthy praise you might receive
a pious halo you might achieve,
but you’ll be the only one deceived,
I’ve been called worse than naïve
but I’ve nothing heretical up my sleeve
for my Savior born on Christmas Eve
loves us more than we can conceive:

In His family I am your brother,
so Love the Lord, our God
and love one another.

The Businessman Speaks Again

I used to be
a Christian
until I made
a six-figure salary.

Then I became
an American
because it’s easier
to give money
to the poor
when you’re
one of them.

I made it.

I now espouse
the religion
of capitalism

which I define

a poorer man
fellating a richer man
fellating yet a richer man
until all that
hot, sticky money
trickles down.

When I was a Christian
I used to believe
“that which you do
to the least of these,
you do to me.”

I believe in survival of the fittest:
it’s easier
and more rational.

there’s a pharmacy
next to my bank

so I can buy
more mouthwash
after I cash my paycheck.